Answered prayers.

This little baby has answered any kind of prayer I've ever prayed. We found out in august, when this post was originally supposed to occur. And no at the end of October we are reaching our fourth month. I have to say, we're more excited than anything. With a small little one on the way we're more excited than most would be. We've tried for so long, and had a couple failed trys, but now, everything is coming into place. Stay tuned for a sex reveal with in the next few weeks. =]

What better way to spend a sleepless night? I'm sitting across the room from my love and though we both are entranced in our own worlds we're still totally into each other. I once read that marriage is two people living separate lives, but doing it together. And though this is about marriage, it also goes for relationships. We've lived together for almost the entirety of our relationship, and I've never once regretted it. We may argue, and we may not spend every waking moment together, but I am madly in love with him and want to be in love with him for the rest of my life. We've been together for six years now and I wouldn't take back a single minute of it. 

Now I hate to read blogs that say, "oh I love how my life is, and I love everything about this and that, and oh how wonderful so and so is" And every other month it's a different so and so. So I'll spare you that in this particular blog. But you will have to deal with mushy gushy posts from time to time. Much like this one. 

I sat down with intentions on writing about what a wonderful Lughnasadh I had. I gathered with my small group and we performed a small ritual. It consisted of a few good luck spells and a couple of healing spells. Also a fertility request was asked upon The God and Goddess. Though we're doing all we can, I feel like I need a little help. Spiritual helping is something I have a hard time with. And I'm hoping that God will find it in his heart and help the Goddess in helping me. I'm going to keep my fingers crossed and hope for the best. Say your prayers for me!!

Have you ever felt like it's taken a million years for your life to begin? Like you've been waiting and waiting and waiting for something amazing to happen? I'm afraid we've all been there. And as much as I hate to admit it, I've only recently discovered that I am living my life precisely how I want it lived.

More than anything on this planet I want to have that wonderful moment when I enter a child onto this planet and know that they are mine. And to know that Dale and I will take a part in raising this child to the best of our abilities and what others may see as unconventional. After experiencing two miscarriages and many false hope pregnancies, I often feel discouraged to try again and just keep waiting. But all the while wanting desperately to achieve my ultimate goal in life. I believe that God will grant me my wish in his own time, and waiting is becoming harder and harder. But I believe that something great is in store for me. The Goddess Dionysus will watch over me and aide God in granting my wish.

We're doing all that we can in order to successfully get pregnant.
And I'm looking into some herbs that aide in fertility. I'm hoping to find some home remedies that will help. Wish us luck!!!!

death..

While speaking with some co-workers today the realization of my mortality suddenly hit me in the face. A current death in the family of my boss got me thinking about how quickly time flies. Just how prepared am I if I were to die? Then I think about how I am 23 years old! And should I really be concerned?!

Feeling a bit morbid I was forced to think about how my family would take care of those things if I was die tomorrow. While hating this thought, I couldn't help but think about how unprepared and financially unprepared my family and myself were for an event such as this. So I can say that soon a fund will be started for something such as this. Because as much as I would love to pretend, I am not immortal.

ughh, I can't believe it.

Have you ever seen that movie "Dahmer"?
It stars Jeremy Renner as Dahmer himself. And Bruce Davison as his father. I love Non-Fictional movies as much as the next guy, but this movie was horrible! I mean, I've seen movies that I thought were bad, and movies that may have started well but soon got worse. But this movie was the worst movie I have ever soon. And until yesterday I thought that I could never hate a movie as much as I hated "Land of the Dead." David Jacobson lacks any vision when directing this film. Not only does the movie not have a plot, it lacks dialogue amongst the characters. This movie starts and seems to go on for an eternity. Not only is there no climax, there's no ending! I sat for an hour and forty minutes waiting for something to tie this film together. To explain to me a story, or at least get his story. All I watched was sex and murder. No story, no ending. Just sex and violence. I would love to meet the writer of this film. So I could ask him what the hell he was thinking. I can't get over the non existence of a plot or even a reason for a film. I wouldn't waste my time on any other movie this guy has directed. I can't imagine releasing this to the public. Not only was I disappointed with the lack of knowledge learned from this film, I'm disappointed that a interesting story wasn't revealed and Dahmer himself wasn't given proper justice by Jeremy Renner. His acting was mediocre and lacking interest.

Introductions..

Well, after a week of staring at the computer screen and trying desperately how to introduce myself into the world of blogging instead of nonstop posting of twitter and facebook, I find myself finally willing and able to conduct a post worthy of being seen. As my profile states I am 23 years old. I am a college student and full time waitress. Not only am I those things, I'm also a loving girlfriend and over protective aunt to a beautiful baby boy.

My life is full of love and my main love is Stacy Dale Amburgey! He's been my sweetheart for six years and for those past six years I've enjoyed every single bit of it. We've been sweethearts since I was 17. Fresh out of high school and searching this small town for something to do and where to fit in. Newly moved from my mother's household I met him at Taco Bell and quickly fell in love. Things moved fast, but our love would only show after a long six months of dating. It was then I knew that this was the Man I was going to spend the rest of my life with. He's my heart, soul, and true other half. 

My beliefs are different, but very strong. I may not be your average person with christian beliefs but this makes me no less than you. I am wiccan. With a strong christian background. I don't cast spells and only wear black and worship the devil. Believe it or not I do believe in God, but I also believe that god has help and that other Gods do exist. Let's keep religion personal, and judging away from me. I don't do it, and only God can do it accordingly.

I also am a self proclaimed hippie. I believe in earthly medications, and remedies. If all possible I'd time travel to 1965 and just live. So beware to hippie rants and thinking.

Another thing you'll frequently hear about is my deep desire and need to have a family. That's right I'm one of those women who believes that her life isn't complete until a small bundle of joy is added to the mix. We're currently trying to make that happen. And I'm sure I'll post frequently about how that's going. It's something we both want and something that we both will try very hard in accomplishing.


Well now that you know what to expect, maybe I'll attract some people who share the same love of blogging that I have. And someone worth reading.

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